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[Wednesday
April 15th ]
New livejournal, I need to start over.
www.drinkmywarr.livejournal.com
Add it.
3 Cmnt

[Friday
April 10th ]
Knowing there's always going to be someone more important than you in someone's life is draining. I really just want to be needed... once.
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[Friday
April 10th ]
Am I always just going to be a convenience?
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[Thursday
April 9th ]
I really never thought I'd meet someone who keeps me down to earth and is crazy with me at the same time.
Ahhhh! SO GREAT!
Cmnt

[Wednesday
April 1st ]
"I want to fall in love with him to the extent I feel like I can, but I can't."

I think I'm starting to want to take that back.
Cmnt

[Sunday
March 29th ]
I feel like everything's out of place.
I want to hate him but I can't.
I want to fall in love with him to the extent I feel like I can, but I can't.
I'm sitting on the edge of everything.
It feels like a mess.
Cmnt

[Saturday
March 28th ]
Wow.
Cmnt

[Thursday
March 26th ]
WHY DO MEN FIND IT SO NECESSARY TO TRY TO MAKE ME EXPRESS JEALOUSLY? It makes me fucking miserable and absolutely pushes me away. I'm so frustrated.
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[Wednesday
March 25th ]
I honestly don't remember anything from the last two weeks, and I've been 100% sober. I was standing in the shower tonight and thinking about how I've been so distant. I'm understanding this whole "cloud 9" thing much more than ever before...
Cmnt

[Tuesday
March 24th ]
Real, honest love shouldn't take years to develop. You should know in minutes, if not seconds that you're going to love someone. It should absolutely turn your world upside down and set it on fire. Days should fly by with them and drag for years without them. I suddenly don't feel so foolish.
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[Thursday
March 19th ]
Someday I'll learn to accept the fact that I'll only ever be second best.
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[Saturday
March 7th ]
I will NEVER put a boyfriend in front of a best friend.
I will NEVER take advantage of someone.
Cmnt

[Monday
March 2nd ]
Seriously changing my life focus.
Dropping 20lbs, getting a new car, getting my sleeve started, and focusing on being nicer to everyone.
Not letting my heart get broken again. I'm going to keep myself busy.
Leaving this site for some time. Bye.
1 Cmnt

[Friday
February 27th ]
Day 6. Accepted into the art program I applied to. Great plans for tomorrow.
Irony of it all? I'm miserable.
Cmnt

[Thursday
February 26th ]
My life is nothing short of a roller coaster these days. I'm feeling like things need to be drastically changed. That may include leaving this journal behind. I don't know what I need to do just yet, but things are going to change.
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[Monday
February 23rd ]
Going to sleep is one of the hardest things to do when you're waiting for someone to say something.. anything.
Cmnt

[Saturday
February 21st ]
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[Saturday
February 7th ]
I have nothing to write about here anymore.
I'm in a weird place, I guess.
I feel like I want to do something with my writing in my livejournal that's more interesting, but I have no clue.
Ideas?
Cmnt

[Friday
January 23rd ]
I'm laying on my bed and all I smell is your cologne. You haven't been around much lately.. so it's unexplainable. I just know it's giving me incredible comfort with where I'm at. I'm undeniably head over heels and I can't say it enough.
2 Cmnt

[Tuesday
January 20th ]
I have no idea what's going on with me anymore. I feel like the most fake and the most real person at the same time. I don't know myself anymore. I don't know what to do about it. I feel like I don't know anything. I'm lost in my own day dreams.

I'm falling apart. Every thing's all messed up in my head. I can't decipher what I want from what I need, let alone from what I know. I'm just so lost and I can't figure this out. I don't know. I don't know.
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