I think I've found my other half

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-04-15T14:23:00

2009-04-15T18:24:07Z

New livejournal, I need to start over.
www.drinkmywarr.livejournal.com
Add it.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-04-10T18:44:00

2009-04-10T22:45:03Z

Knowing there's always going to be someone more important than you in someone's life is draining. I really just want to be needed... once.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-04-10T12:11:00

2009-04-10T16:12:19Z

Am I always just going to be a convenience?

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-04-09T00:06:00

2009-04-09T04:06:19Z

I really never thought I'd meet someone who keeps me down to earth and is crazy with me at the same time.
Ahhhh! SO GREAT!

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-04-01T20:02:00

2009-04-02T00:04:02Z

"I want to fall in love with him to the extent I feel like I can, but I can't."

I think I'm starting to want to take that back.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-29T17:15:00

2009-03-29T21:15:48Z

I feel like everything's out of place.
I want to hate him but I can't.
I want to fall in love with him to the extent I feel like I can, but I can't.
I'm sitting on the edge of everything.
It feels like a mess.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-28T00:21:00

2009-03-28T04:21:08Z

Wow.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-26T23:21:00

2009-03-27T03:21:56Z

WHY DO MEN FIND IT SO NECESSARY TO TRY TO MAKE ME EXPRESS JEALOUSLY? It makes me fucking miserable and absolutely pushes me away. I'm so frustrated.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-25T21:44:00

2009-03-26T01:46:06Z

I honestly don't remember anything from the last two weeks, and I've been 100% sober. I was standing in the shower tonight and thinking about how I've been so distant. I'm understanding this whole "cloud 9" thing much more than ever before...

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-24T22:09:00

2009-03-25T02:10:19Z

Real, honest love shouldn't take years to develop. You should know in minutes, if not seconds that you're going to love someone. It should absolutely turn your world upside down and set it on fire. Days should fly by with them and drag for years without them. I suddenly don't feel so foolish.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-19T21:29:00

2009-03-20T01:30:06Z

Someday I'll learn to accept the fact that I'll only ever be second best.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-07T11:18:00

2009-03-07T16:19:40Z

I will NEVER put a boyfriend in front of a best friend.
I will NEVER take advantage of someone.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-03-02T23:06:00

2009-03-03T04:08:26Z

Seriously changing my life focus.
Dropping 20lbs, getting a new car, getting my sleeve started, and focusing on being nicer to everyone.
Not letting my heart get broken again. I'm going to keep myself busy.
Leaving this site for some time. Bye.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-02-27T23:06:00

2009-02-28T04:07:24Z

Day 6. Accepted into the art program I applied to. Great plans for tomorrow.
Irony of it all? I'm miserable.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-02-26T22:25:00

2009-02-27T03:26:53Z

My life is nothing short of a roller coaster these days. I'm feeling like things need to be drastically changed. That may include leaving this journal behind. I don't know what I need to do just yet, but things are going to change.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-02-23T23:30:00

2009-02-24T04:31:26Z

Going to sleep is one of the hardest things to do when you're waiting for someone to say something.. anything.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-02-21T00:17:00

2009-02-21T05:18:04Z

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-02-07T17:59:00

2009-02-07T23:00:44Z

I have nothing to write about here anymore.
I'm in a weird place, I guess.
I feel like I want to do something with my writing in my livejournal that's more interesting, but I have no clue.
Ideas?

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-01-23T21:08:00

2009-01-24T02:11:37Z

I'm laying on my bed and all I smell is your cologne. You haven't been around much lately.. so it's unexplainable. I just know it's giving me incredible comfort with where I'm at. I'm undeniably head over heels and I can't say it enough.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-01-20T19:32:00

2009-01-21T00:33:41Z

I have no idea what's going on with me anymore. I feel like the most fake and the most real person at the same time. I don't know myself anymore. I don't know what to do about it. I feel like I don't know anything. I'm lost in my own day dreams.

I'm falling apart. Every thing's all messed up in my head. I can't decipher what I want from what I need, let alone from what I know. I'm just so lost and I can't figure this out. I don't know. I don't know.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-01-19T12:23:00

2009-01-19T17:25:48Z

Never mind my last post. I can't even do that for personal reasons I'm not sure of anymore. Something doesn't feel right today. I can't place it at all, I just know that the feeling I'm getting from it isn't good. I'm nervous to say the least.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-01-19T00:37:00

2009-01-19T05:37:41Z

I think every time I update from now on I'm going to document one day dream I've had.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-01-12T19:25:00

2009-01-13T00:25:58Z

ahh, i fucking LOVE you.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-01-10T12:12:00

2009-01-10T17:13:12Z

I wish I knew why my mom treats me like I'm a horrible person, 'cause I'm not. I'm not a bad person at all.

juicyfruit7876 @ 2009-01-08T20:31:00

2009-01-09T01:32:47Z

Thaaaaaank goodness that was just a phase. I'm happy.