I think I've found my other half

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 18:24:07 GMT

New livejournal, I need to start over.
www.drinkmywarr.livejournal.com
Add it.

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 22:45:03 GMT

Knowing there's always going to be someone more important than you in someone's life is draining. I really just want to be needed... once.

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:12:19 GMT

Am I always just going to be a convenience?

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 04:06:19 GMT

I really never thought I'd meet someone who keeps me down to earth and is crazy with me at the same time.
Ahhhh! SO GREAT!

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 00:04:02 GMT

"I want to fall in love with him to the extent I feel like I can, but I can't."

I think I'm starting to want to take that back.

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 21:15:48 GMT

I feel like everything's out of place.
I want to hate him but I can't.
I want to fall in love with him to the extent I feel like I can, but I can't.
I'm sitting on the edge of everything.
It feels like a mess.

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 04:21:08 GMT

Wow.

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 03:21:56 GMT

WHY DO MEN FIND IT SO NECESSARY TO TRY TO MAKE ME EXPRESS JEALOUSLY? It makes me fucking miserable and absolutely pushes me away. I'm so frustrated.

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 01:46:06 GMT

I honestly don't remember anything from the last two weeks, and I've been 100% sober. I was standing in the shower tonight and thinking about how I've been so distant. I'm understanding this whole "cloud 9" thing much more than ever before...

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 02:10:19 GMT

Real, honest love shouldn't take years to develop. You should know in minutes, if not seconds that you're going to love someone. It should absolutely turn your world upside down and set it on fire. Days should fly by with them and drag for years without them. I suddenly don't feel so foolish.

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 01:30:06 GMT

Someday I'll learn to accept the fact that I'll only ever be second best.

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 16:19:40 GMT

I will NEVER put a boyfriend in front of a best friend.
I will NEVER take advantage of someone.

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 04:08:26 GMT

Seriously changing my life focus.
Dropping 20lbs, getting a new car, getting my sleeve started, and focusing on being nicer to everyone.
Not letting my heart get broken again. I'm going to keep myself busy.
Leaving this site for some time. Bye.

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 04:07:24 GMT

Day 6. Accepted into the art program I applied to. Great plans for tomorrow.
Irony of it all? I'm miserable.

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 03:26:53 GMT

My life is nothing short of a roller coaster these days. I'm feeling like things need to be drastically changed. That may include leaving this journal behind. I don't know what I need to do just yet, but things are going to change.

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 04:31:26 GMT

Going to sleep is one of the hardest things to do when you're waiting for someone to say something.. anything.

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 05:18:04 GMT

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 23:00:44 GMT

I have nothing to write about here anymore.
I'm in a weird place, I guess.
I feel like I want to do something with my writing in my livejournal that's more interesting, but I have no clue.
Ideas?

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 02:11:37 GMT

I'm laying on my bed and all I smell is your cologne. You haven't been around much lately.. so it's unexplainable. I just know it's giving me incredible comfort with where I'm at. I'm undeniably head over heels and I can't say it enough.

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 00:33:41 GMT

I have no idea what's going on with me anymore. I feel like the most fake and the most real person at the same time. I don't know myself anymore. I don't know what to do about it. I feel like I don't know anything. I'm lost in my own day dreams.

I'm falling apart. Every thing's all messed up in my head. I can't decipher what I want from what I need, let alone from what I know. I'm just so lost and I can't figure this out. I don't know. I don't know.

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 17:25:48 GMT

Never mind my last post. I can't even do that for personal reasons I'm not sure of anymore. Something doesn't feel right today. I can't place it at all, I just know that the feeling I'm getting from it isn't good. I'm nervous to say the least.

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 05:37:41 GMT

I think every time I update from now on I'm going to document one day dream I've had.

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 00:25:58 GMT

ahh, i fucking LOVE you.

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 17:13:12 GMT

I wish I knew why my mom treats me like I'm a horrible person, 'cause I'm not. I'm not a bad person at all.

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 01:32:47 GMT

Thaaaaaank goodness that was just a phase. I'm happy.